But if life is not supposed to be a fairy tale – why live it ?

Vera is a divorced woman who didn’t have a man for four years. She is already in the age, when her children are in a school, so she can finally have some time for her. She has horrible relationships after her, so horrible, that she was four years ago totally on the floor and needed to start from the beggining. What was good for her, since she didn’t have any other way to go, but up. I will not tell you a lot about her depression, but four years ago she tought that her life wa over and that she is existing merely because she needs to take care for kids. That’s how she was thinking at the break up of her previous relationship…

In the middle of every former relationship she always thought… that’s it. This is how life is supposed to be. That is everything what I can get. When she was married, she and her husband went into the trails what almost every second married couple with kids experienced…

First in love, then one kid, then the other one, it starts to be hard, hard, hard… and love just went away like it never was there at the first place.

So… Vera was in the middle of her marriages, depressed, sad and in apathy.

As a young girl, she had lots of life in her, but then she just thought, that one Beloved, one Prince who is there for her just doesn’t exist, this is just a fairy tale, a story to tell to young girls, to be happy about life…

But if life is not supposed to be a fairy tale – why live it ?

All of this stuff went through her mind when she was there on the floor mourning the last man who left her. She was sure that there is no man for her any more in this life time and that she is “done” with men. She need long, long to recover from the pain. She was humiliated. She was with feeling that she is worthless. Specially she was not trusting men.

And then one in a year of her mourning over her life she just … survived.

Then over two years of her mourning she didn’t have so strong pannic attacts any more.

When she was mourning her third year, she finally start to take care on her body. Her body was neglected. She was fat, not very much, but fat… she hated her body, she did’t have any body condition. She started to go to fitness every day. She started to enjoy it. She started to love her body. She started to love herself.

This was one year before she met Mark on the internet. Please, girls, if you read that and you are looking for a match on internet, don’t ask man on your first “date”, if he will have seven kids with you and if he will stay with you ten years.

That’s what Vera did.

Maybe, because she was so happy that she is living again. But it is OK, you always can repair everything with communication. Mark was Vera’s first serious date. They went through ups and downs. On internet – you can count one month of “dating” as one year in real life. Or something. Everthing goes very quick. And if you don’t talk one day, then it hurts like in a real life. There is no difference!

So… she “knew” Mark for about two months and now Mark said that he is coming.

Vera’s first thought was… she will hide herself.

Her second thought was… she still has ten kilos too much and she has not enough time to loose weight.

Her third though was… she has nothing to dress… next thought was… she was so long not with a man, what if is not the right for her…

Then she just brushed everything aside. What will be will be. It can end like that they will be inseparable till their death. It can end with separation. Life is unending. And it always flows. We just have to allow life to suprise us, to give us gifts…